What we can learn from children

Wow,

Ok so Annaclaire had a beauty pageant last night. She did very very well but did not place...fine by me she had a blast playing cinderella yet once again. And it was also perfectly fine by her that she did not place. We were on the way home and she said to me in her little innocent voice mommy I looked at my feet one time while I was on stage. I simply said Baby thats ok you did a wonderful job and looked beautiful up there. She said mommy do you wanna know why I looked at my feet. I said why and she said here it goes a direct quote from my four year old "Mommy, I've won so many I wanted to give another little girl a chance to win" My heart stopped, my mouth dropped and my eyes watered. I have never been so proud and shocked at the same time before like that in my life. I could not believe what my four year old just said. Later on last night I got to thinking about it. First of all Sister and I needed to have a talk to make sure she wanted to do these pageants and not me (which she does) Second of all we needed to talk so that she knew if she worked really hard for something it was ok to win. Third of all, and this is the reason im writing this, I needed to reflect on what she had just said. How many times in my life do I not stop to think of how bad someone else may want or need something. Is it bred in us to think strictly of ourselves winning (or accomplishing) that we run people over to get it, Not realizing someone else may need it worse than we do. You know we have all got a little bit of a competitor in us but do we let it rule our lives to the point of walking over other people or worse stabbing them in the back to get what we want. All of you can take this anyway that you would like to but it really made me sit back and reflect and also reflect on what I was teaching my children. I like to think that I am teaching them the right things (after all she had to come up with that somehow) But, am I teaching them by example or by just words.

Anyway, Just wanted to give you all something to reflect on in the upcoming week. I don't know if it makes any sense or not. Maybe I just needed to get all this off and it doesn't make one lick of sense and if it doesnt forgive me and thank you for letting me babble.

Love you all
Tammy